Daniel, I'm proud of you man, and I myself would like to even write something off of this if you don't mind. But here's my thoughts for you first off:
-Very good job. Its hard to put something where you admit to something you feel shameful about in public, let alone the millions of viewers who might see this online.
-In decision-making, I've run into similar problems many times and that's why I kept asking you and probably still will when I feel like I need to talk to a girl in an interesting situation wit me (
you know what I'm talking about).
The reason I haven't is because I can't just make a decision for her to try and make me a part of her hectic life again in any way after the way I estranged her on a trip we took together. I befriended her, became depressed, and felt like I couldn't share that fact with her, and she had no idea what was up with me. I'd feel very guilty to just try and pop back up in her life again when it might only cause stress for a long time.
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Everyone is human
The one problem I see with the ideals of this website and the banter is this need for constant improvement. We are only human, and while we like constancy, too much of it for too long can make us go crazy and get tense. We're not meant to be perfect so we can't hold ourselves to those kinds of standards. It's OK to just let yourself go sometimes.
-Your finals remarks
I haven't talked with you in a while man, but at one point you said you weren't doing this for browny points and you weren't doing this for something else, etc...But then
you paused. After the pause you were still vague.
I think it's because the words you wanted to use were: Thank, Appreciate, and
Love.
And I also think that while this feels like a rush of revelations to you, you're almost evading your difficulties in showing appreciation and love by not just telling her. You're hoping she'll watch this video, why if not to tell her those things in a more impersonal way? The appreciation in this is not aimed from your heart (or I think you maybe are just wording it such mentally and physically) because you said this is for everyone out there watching and that you're doing what's right.
You're doing what you
want to do for someone else because you are feeling a true appreciation for them and what has happened. It's only the right thing to do if you choose it to be, and it being such heavily relies on how you feel and what you think about the person. Don't say you're just doing it because it's the right thing to do when it's mainly from your heart. You're just putting a stumbling block before yourself there and it can possibly just lead to feeling worse.
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